i don wanna do dis anymore.

2007-02-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH...YISHENG is here!! gosh la.it has been very very very long since the last time i BLOGGED myself la..the reason is becos i am busy not lazy(thats wad i believe in).hah! i am the class chairman.i bet the class will be in such great hands!and my blog.Screw that tagbox.!will anyone do me a fav by helping me go in and fix the problem! why like that?super irritating.and now i really wonder.does any still rmb abt this blog's existence!?!!? been failing my chinese and social studies.! help me please. i need to do it so well so much.HEAR THIS! NG YI SHENG IS GOING TO GET TOP 5 FOR HIS N LEVEL.aint really confident of 3.becos the class that i am in ,i find them so smart.yea i understand maybe is jus becos i lead them huh!so that gotta be the only reason!.erm... =.=

N level is coming i am feeling the pressure,but i jus cant push myself that hard enuff to work hard enuff for it.still here slacking.HOWHOWHOW.??i jus cant stop feeling another side of me that i wont make it thru this year.
OH PLEASE BLESS ME!

2007-02-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

hello.

this blog is like so dead?!? LOL! whatever. hah!!

this gonna be a PROPER post. yeah right. PROPER hur.

slept damn early yesterday, around 7 plus - Immediately after i reached home. hahas. had soccer match in the morning with the adults team or group. oh. whatever you call it luh. hahas. now, i going to go play soccer again. i'm currently not at home. wondering how i blog?? hahas. don't tell you. let all of you slowly guess. hahas.

oh well, don't know what else to blog already. just posting to make this blog alive. LOL!! whatever!

anw,

quick tag replies,

KYLIE: you are relinked. finally hur. hahas.
MICHELLEE(: : i'm that irritating. hahas. got ppl spammed my taboard. hahas. not what advertisments. LOL!!!

2007-01-27T14:57:00.000+08:00

berlin=winner=rocker

me=loser=sucker.

hah!!

i am a very lazy person. s-u-p-e-r lazy. L-A-Z-Y. this is how to spell lazy. LOL!!
i am a very short person. not like berlin. 180 cm tall. WOW!!! sometimes i really wonder how she grow so tall one. wahahahahs.
i am super thick skin luh. seriously mus learn how to be more humble like berlin.
oh man. i'm suck a loser, suck a sucker.

actually, i'm not yisheng. lols.
serve you right for not updating your blog.
it's rotting can.

dumbass!! hahas. always ask me help you update your blog. can't you blog by YOUR OWN.

haha.what a dumb ass.

2007-01-03T00:25:00.001+08:00

haha.here i am once again.i finally can post after my com broke down for so long.i realize my phone can go on the web.(not acting high tech)so now is 1 am and in 5 hours time i need to wake up and get ready for school.i am having mix feeling about school..hmmm.i really wanna do super well in my comin 2007.but i am afraid halfway i will fall back..haha.so everyone must help me ok.haha.the reason why i am here to blog is because of am ass who hack into my account ,as you can see is surely done by some dumbass.haha.okay.about my holiday.i guess it was lousy a0first.but now i realize maybe is one of the best i had..haha.due to some dumb connection i guess..haha.anyway my new year resolution is to get top 3 for my n level this year.haha.so do support me and i really wanna get myself organise.yup...anyway happy new year to all.wishing all a good year ahead..haha..god bless. okay going to sleepnow if not tomorrow first day don need go school already.. ........mutu...

2006-12-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

A very Good afternoon humans. :D

Hi *waves madly* my name is mutu :) please appricate this name. it is my name. if you don't appricate, it just only means that you are trying to look down on me ok?!! LOL!! I am a very very very irritating person cause berlin ~~thinks~~ SAYS so. Berlin was here :D [all stated by berlin]. wahahahas. Well im basically someone that talks alot, eats alot and can irritate you alot. yeah. alot, alot, a lot n alot!! I'm just so.. alot. yeah man. Can't take the pressure of alot? Then you must be or perhaps, confirm a weaklink.

yi sheng arh yi sheng. why you so lazy. your blog is rotting do you know that?!? *knocks** *knock**

think he must be very buzy w his work. so hardworking. like me like that. TYTY. (:

hmmm. got nth else to blog already. =pp

blah blahh

2006-09-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

last time i blog? long forgotten. can onli talk abt nw.
life? cool. nw 1 great God, few simple friends,1 simple lifestyle, simple kind of happiness. It jus feels wonderful, a kind of peace nvr felt be4.haha, lifes like this.be4 this was, everything feels that sumthing would go wrong,feel that things aint as simple as it seems make urself feel it is complicated,turn back and think, make urself feel regretful of a past.
had been hard to get by though for the past 2 weeks or so, had been talking to my new spiritual buddy, had been quite a "help" although having same prob, i was like teling her wad to do, which in turn i drop in same situation ,she came back wit same answer, but i guess thats it. shudnt even be a problem,yea.
humans stil i gues.. so aint perfect, will tend to feel or miss stuff,which is totally no where to be found again.but realize one thing. STUDY.it takes ur mind away from thinking abt stuff. it jus makes u wanna noe more abt it.it has been my great help of "running" away from thinking. getting myself upset. haha. prayer. miraculously great.prayed hard asked for direction i guess it has shown me alr. haha/ all is that i realize that lifes of a simple stuff. jus simplicity! is great. no worries. no things can really go wrong. jus 1 route. craving more for u lord.
my first breath,YOU'RE THE LIFE IN ME!

nth much,

2006-08-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

today was a real lousy day i dun noe why. but service was great really concentrated however at the start of worship i was quite off , my mind was sumwhere else.i starting to fall in love...with church alot.when i realize that i didnt wanna lose my chance of going to church i quickly drop off the mrt and took a cab home.hoping that i wouldnt be late. but was still late by like 30 mins? lucky thing was that i wasnt scolded. i was rather happy so i did wad i needed to do.. go to study room and start studying.today i studying the whole day although i wasnt really interested but i guess it wil be much better for me to take my time there than go out and waste it away. so i jus sat there... hmm.. was quite a boring day today other than the exciting church service. really wish i could skip tuition tomolo for service . but i guess my studies for now needs to come first. this is my last chance la. i dun wanna do it over again in school.hmmm think thats all.. la. but mrt trip home was real lousy..zzZ

Great Day require Great response.

2006-08-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today.. TENTH OF AUGUST. aint it such a great day to go out. ok..here goes.. today morning woke up at like 9 ++ than went out to meet a friend near school to collect my things. than after which i went to tiong bahru to meet mich,gab,mei,cailing,arron.to go for a BBQ @ the east coast park organised by mich's cell group.the whole thing was great.okay..so met they all firstly they went to a coffeeshop to eat first while waiting for cailing arrival. than they finished eating than cailing came. so we took a bus. 16 to ECP was such a long trip therefore i took a nap la. than reach there le. we were like so confused to where to stop.haha but in the end everything turn out great. we started off by cycling with suggestion of shumei. haha she knock on to sumone which i still think wasnt her fault haha. than we cycled like here and there which is like cooling but rather boring as nth much to see.wanted to see the sand castle exhibition cos i nvr really saw a proper sand castle in my life. haha other than on tv. went to the jetty there was great view. and i was jus reminded that it was the 6th month! oh man how lucky a day isit today haha. than.hmm. was like 3.45 - 4 i think than we met her cell grp which we started off with games. i was rather happy i saw sum of the guys from 4i as i wuldnt feel so bored and happen that i brought a ball to play with. shumei gab and cailing wanted to leave earlier but lucky at least they stayed for the games at the start.although the response wasnt great but mich enjoyed herself i think haha.. she looks/sounds FUNNY when she complains abt sumone( the one who sm knock into). haha.than after the games we sang song than went to start the BBQ than i felt rather bad after. as i was suppose to be there for bbq but in the end i ended in my soccer game. i have to admit i cant control it when i see the ball.i jus feel like kicking it. perhaps is my another life. is really impt to me haha.. but i spent a real short time at the pit haha. went to the shore. met this uncle fishing. he was real great. in fact i even tot is he sumone sent by God. haha i was having many doubts in my life. he actually tot me many stuff which i dun really understand on the inside. but roughly understand wad he was trying to say. many many stuff.. he share many stories in the bible which i nvr knew. and suprisingly he told me he wasnt a christian. it jus suddenly struck me how lousy a christian am i. i felt that i was so far away from him. haha i guess i can catch up with him some day.. SOON i guess.. hmm arnd evening 6+ aaron left for home. than i was near the shore chating with that uncle i jus felt so comforted talking to him and relax. as i was oso enjoying the breeze there. haha.. at night i dun noe wad happen but i felt it was partially my fault that ppl went into sum dispute hmm.. i hope everythings alrite nw. I AM SORRY! than took a bus home in 16 which mich and watch sg idol. than i reached tiong i took a cab home than got a small talk with Mum and was asked to study and than finished studyin i am here nw typing this post. thats all for today.
i am so lousy in bloggin. not even consistent sign..guess i need to try harder. if nt i guess it beats the purpose of having a blog.
sumtimes i jus cant understand. why parents are so conservative. i understand it is good and bad things i guess. than when u wanna go out how? do u ask for permission which u noe the likelihood of the answer will be a NO. or do u give excuse to stay out e.g school prog. and stay in fear that ur lies will be exposed.?? i really dun noe wad to do? anyone tell me?....
today is such great day i jus cant forget thanks

-------------10-08-2006--------------

i really got nothing to turn to.

2006-08-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

actually at this point of timei really feeling super crappy .today i nearly got expelled. i really dun noe wad to do. i had a real hard time to let mr lim to let me stay in school. when i realize that this time i really needed to leave school . where can i go after this. i felt really super to admit my own mistake to get my self in this deep shit.the worse isnt here yet. when i was talking to mr lim. i felt the way the Vp and mr ow distrust in me. becos i had many bad past records. but they aint convince that i would change.i felt really alone really lost. they came to a conclusion that they wanted me to try out for another 2 weeks as a probation to whether to stay on in school. so this next 2 weeks is very crucial to me. i had o follow mr ow to whereever he goes. attend to his wadeva needs. jus needed to be in his side everyday till 6pm for next 14 days.i went home.when i tot no one trusted that i wud change. i overheard my mum gossiping telling my aunt abt wad happen. saying everything . i asked her why cant she jus trust me and let this be the last time i handle it..when she said that she knew me ever since young. i knew that the one who has been closest to me for the past few years. has no different than anybody. i jus felt so helpless.. would anyone understand. i jus hope that things wouldnt be this way. but it already has. all i wish now is jus a simple time alone.no one will understand me.

Your Great Love Has No Boundaries.

2006-07-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

So So Long since i last post lar! haha so.. wad can i say.. Today? morning woke up at 9 than watch the replay of my fav. show.. i dun noe wad the title. i call it the cake show.is super nice..char.all cute cute de lol. than watched the last episode. than finished at around 10 30. call my friend as ther is P v P(Past Versus Present) i realized that they already started their first match. i was so worried. and my friend nat stand in for me. luckily things were fine. as it was only a draw. went to school was waiting for second match.. saw so many "strangers" in school lar.. cos like never see be4. up to 20- 30 years old fairsian oso have. haiyo. than after mich called that she cant meet at 2 30 timing. than after my 2 game which we won!! i went to tiong to meet isabelle.. went with her to expo.. slept thru the trip. i felt very wierd leh. dun really noe wad to talk to her abt.like very stranger leh. than so i go sleep lo anyway had fever and headache. lol.than reach there le waited for mich as she was waiting for Shumei. than i went in wit wei keong first. than in service was great. today all the songs are great like always. but today seems better.today the speaker was great MIKE CONNELL! i really wished i could stay on for the 7 30 service leh.. but haiz the timing. i really wanna see how a person get manifested??( nt sure is like that spell or not) actually i felt that i have a demon inside me. i wanna get it out. i wanna start anew.but i guess service today was quite fruitful. it was fun and exciting. afterwhich i took a cab with shumei and oh the start fare for cab was like $6.50.! is like $2.50 than $2 expo fare to come out.$2 for peak hour!. than i am nt sure whether shumei could make it thru with $24 as reach clementi already 21 like that. hmm hope she is fine lo.

CHC is a great church i realize that i cant find a church as happening as it feel that no other church can replace it. but am afraid commitment.which i feel i shud slowly start trying!
Target:Do Well for my final year afterwhich i would be allowed to control my timing again. than Cell group would come in . so this year church first !

Studying is important,Soccer is fun,Relationship is loving
God is EVERYTHING

~Destiny My Eternity~

2006-07-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm. its been so long ever since i updated. past few days have been really, really terrible. been coughing for like 3-4 days already. today i woke up at 8+ and went for tuition at bishan. i was like super tired. after tuition i went out for lunch with my cousin and then we went for tuition again at novena square. after that went to coronation plaza to check my handphone. my poor handphone.. it dropped in the toilet bowl. im so pissed about my phone la. im so pissed that i have to pay $100 to fix my phone. then came home at around 7. feeling real bored. wanted to post but didnt feel like posting cos im super lazy. but thanks to kylie, who's helping me to type now. i finally am able to update. KYLIE ROCKS!!(: dont have much to talk about now. hopefully some other time kylie will help me post again.

"Yesterday Today"-20-21/06/2006

2006-06-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. been super super long since i last update lo.. actually to me.. i blog 4 fun. cos i dun really noe the meaning of bloggin. i dun noe lar. i guess blogging is a girl stuff.. haha. anyway. on monday.. i skipped Ncc camp and went to chalet with my team of friends.. from NAFC.. we had a super great time there.. we played our own personalised world cup. to me the highlight of the chalet is that we watched soccer thru the night together..me shihan,wilson,weidong,darren,tianhang,syakir,vic..we went to a so called lounge and watch the switzerland match.we were so excited.. we almost shout thru out the whole match.. the atmosphere was so great.. haha hard to explain the feeling watching soccer wit friends thru the night. is really great.. haha.. than we played played played.. than 3 o clck match oh crap.. lounge close.. than we were darn disappointed that we cudnt watch spain vs tunisia.. we were so excited abt it. for whole day..haha but is alrite.. we called our friend nathaniel.. he became our live commentator.. it got us all really excited.. haha...we had real great fun in da chalet.. after that i went to school for my ncc camp.. haha i told mr ganesan that i was sick so i didnt go for my first day =X. hmm than i again stayed up the whole night getting calls from my friend abt soccer.. i guess world cup really brings me life... today was so tired.. went to meet shihan and wilson.. went out for a while at queesnway.. than shihan went for the party ??? DXO?? VErtigo?? i dun noe oso wad that.. cos i cudnt go. than i went home.. now come bloggin.. super super tired.. but i jus hope that argentina will winn ivory coast too!!!....

10june2006

2006-06-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm..oh man..Germany won !!! haha so happy hmm.. than after that didnt dare to go to sleep.cos the next day which is like today 10am.. have soccer match.. haha than was super tired.. but it was damn fun.. we won our match in fact was a thrashing i got my second clean sheet.. 16-0... haha..wonderful game..we were all very well performed today.hmm than watch germany play..was fun as i was conferencing wit weizheng,kylie,huiqing,hong hong, issac..yea yea..haha than i couldnt watch halfway needed go study..than on the fone i oso can feel the excitement.. haha..was v fun lo.. we talked till around 5am..than hang up.. i went to play some online game..maple etc. cos was really bored and didnt want to sleep .. cos i know if i do sleep wont be able to wake up ahaah.. so yea yea.. finish our match.. i went to tanglin halt and order same old stuff.. hmm than went home.. .. haha.. yup yup.than now so bored.. nothing to do.. not sure if going out with wilson and tian hang not to go chimes to watch world cup .. haha will be v exciting i guess. hmmm.. yup yup.. think thats all for now.. haha

08062006

2006-06-09T09:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm..felt so dumb when charmaine laugh at me that i only had one post..so here i am trying to write more everyday..
hmm..today? had soccer training.. was quite a great training for me..i guessi have still alot to learn.. haha.. so erm.. h,mm.. but got myself so dirty like always..than injured myself..hmm..after soccer went with teammates to tanglin halt to eat our usual..nata ice jelly..haha..hm.. came home..realize i lost my keys!..haha left it in weijie bag..craps. than climb in my house.. went to back gate..than found the backgate keys..hmm.. than went to bath..called up weizheng than granny..than talk awhile..hmm.. was tired.. than later going down to clementi to talk things with my friends..hopefully things will be solved...2 days ago..celeb charmaine burfday..oh man so cool..hmm..was rather tired though... hmm.. haha than charmaine so LOSer.. scared abit .... tears came put from her eyes le.. haha.. than at night we all went to airport to see dorkie off..hmm than meet some of my other friends.. than took a cab with them.. than i went home talk on da fone.. than went to sleep.. yea thats all.. haha.. so erm..now going out le is 6:53 pm le.. bye

Lost.

2006-05-29T13:16:00.000+08:00

first post? isit suppose to be a happy one? i dun Noe a.. why every time wadeva i do is wrong...today come back.. dun noe wad i do.. they jus scold me.. now wanna ground me..wanna control me..and if i cant? please get out of the house?haiz.. i dun understand.. i feel so loser...i dun noe who to trust ..i dun noe wad to turn to.. i jus feel so crappy..is it my fault?i jus farking cant stand it..can any1 tell me how to face this how to handle it?shud i jus leave? shud i jus tolerate.. i dun noe.. i jus wanna live a peaceful life..thats wad everyone's wan i guess.. hmmm..i knew u couldnt be there 4 me de...is alrite than..at least now i know.. i wont fall in any deeper le..thanks alot for the nice promise that u let me hear although i noe it will never come true..hope that tomolo i wake up it will be a better day.. tomolo going go school not sure how isit.. but i hope can relax. hope that i can live properly my life again...i wanna blame no one.. is always true that u reap wad u sow de wad.. so i guess i have to face this alot again..=)